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20 Children Dead? The Onion is Right. Fuck Everything.


After that shooting this week, I didn’t have much to say. I sat at my desk Friday morning bawling, like any self-respecting young woman, and proceeded to fake work until work was over (if anyone from work is reading this, the only thing that will throw me off my game into the realm of fake work is an elementary school shooting. Next time that happens, I’m going home).

Anyways, I still don’t have much to say. Coincidentally today was the day I had scheduled to take the little kids I used to nanny for out for lunch to do our own little “Christmas.” Chase and I spent the morning wrapping presents, then let them (and their adorable new brother) unwrap them, and then we took them to lunch and I spent the afternoon doing crafts and watching Barney with them at our house. I love having them here. They aren’t my family biologically, but as far as I’m concerned we’re family. I can’t be their nanny anymore, but being close to them is really, really, really important to me. It’s a major priority.

The oldest of the two girls is 6, making her exactly the age of the kids that got killed. I thought about it a lot today while playing with her, watching her laugh. And there are just no words. I’ve been remarkably non-hysterical about this since my episode Friday morning (especially compared to my reactions to the Aurora shooting) but I imagine that’s because this one has gone from traumatic to absolute unfathomable hell and I physically can’t cope with it if. So I’ve been listening to “Ronan” on repeat (morbid in my own way, I suppose, but I feel like it’s like listening to songs about heartbreak when you’re heartbroken.. there’s just an empathy there) and have been feeling exhausted – which I’m also blaming on a cold I think I’m fighting – and I’m just all around very defeated by the whole thing.

So I won’t psychoanalyze anything, since this is beyond analysis or comprehension and if I go too deep into it I think I might have a physical nervous breakdown, but I saw this quote by Morgan Freeman on some facebook statuses and I thought it was really, really powerful. I googled it and I guess it’s been debunked as written by him and it was really some guy on Reddit, but anyways I don’t care who it was, I think they made a really great point. So, here that is, and that is all I really know how to say right now about any of this. I love you all, and I hope you’re ok wherever you are and the ones you love are doing well and you can go to bed tonight and not wake up afraid, because there’s nothing we can do but love each other.


“You want to know why. This may sound cynical, but here’s why.

It’s because of the way the media reports it. Flip on the news and watch how we treat the Batman theater shooter and the Oregon mall shooter like celebrities. Dylan Klebold and Eric Harris are household names, but do you know the name of a single *victim* of Columbine? Disturbed

People who would otherwise just off themselves in their basements see the news and want to top it by doing something worse, and going out in a memorable way. Why a grade school? Why children? Because he’ll be remembered as a horrible monster, instead of a sad nobody.CNN’s article says that if the body count “holds up”, this will rank as the second deadliest shooting behind Virginia Tech, as if statistics somehow make one shooting worse than another. Then they post a video interview of third-graders for all the details of what they saw and heard while the shootings were happening. Fox News has plastered the killer’s face on all their reports for hours.

Any articles or news stories yet that focus on the victims and ignore the killer’s identity? None that I’ve seen yet. Because they don’t sell. So congratulations, sensationalist media, you’ve just lit the fire for someone to top this and knock off a day care center or a maternity ward next.

You can help by forgetting you ever read this man’s name, and remembering the name of at least one victim. You can help by donating to mental health research instead of pointing to gun control as the problem. You can help by turning off the news.”

-Morgan Freeman
Additional required reading: Fuck Everything, The Nation Reports
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One Response to 20 Children Dead? The Onion is Right. Fuck Everything.

  1. Sheanna says:

    Sure. I’ll leave a comment.

    I couldn’t pick up my own child from daycare on Friday because I knew as soon as I saw her I would lose it right there in the daycare. I chose instead to lose it later in the comfort of my own home wrapped up in my kids. My 13 year old flew out of the house as soon as I pulled up in the driveway and threw her arms around me and we cried hysterically in our front yard. My 2 year old was confused but joined in. When she asked me why I was crying I just said, “I’m just so happy to see you.”

    I’m angry right now. Very angry. The people I’m most angry with? The media. In their quest to get the information out to the public before their competitors, they didn’t BOTHER with ensuring the information they were giving was correct. It was a sensationalized cluster! This was certainly a story that didn’t need to be sensationalized. It was already horrific. We were all already devastated. I didn’t need a Fox News anchor to tell me to “think about these little 5 year olds in that moment.”

    Watching the news on Friday was like watching a Facebook feed play out in real time. All of the information was bullshit, and they let emotions get in the way of confirming their own “information.” That’s not news, and I say this as someone who works in the television news arena (albeit, in an advertising sales capacity) and as the wife of a news producer.

    I’m beyond angry that these so-called journalists were interviewing CHILDREN the moment they came out of the school. Those same bastards then turned it on its’ ear and told us to imagine the horror these kids felt. Yes, the very children they just used for ratings. That is not news. That is heartless.

    I’m angry with the conversations people choose to have right now. Gun control? Really? It’s been two days and already you people want to talk about gun control? You already want to politicize this? These are the same people that will become suddenly enraged that our president will eventually politicize this, as well as other lawmakers.

    Instead the conversations need to be how we, as members of the human race, can change after these circumstances. How can we be better people? How can we look out for one another more? How can we love with more fullness and for more people? But, instead I hear things like, “If that teacher was packing, those kids would be alive right now.”

    I’m deflated in every sense of the word. I’m sad, and I’m angry, and my heart is absolutely broken. But I have to ask myself how I can change and how I can be better. I also have to turn off the news….Because it’s not news anymore. There is absolutely no information that will help me rationalize this tragedy. That’s when this stops becoming news…When there’s no information that will ever be helpful.

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